What bothers me the most is that I'm so replaceable. I mainly feel this about the boy I love, but I see the same with my mum and my friends. I really thought when he said he loved me and that certain things were special that he only did with me, that he was telling me the truth. Am I that stupid? I must be. I must be a complete idiot. Why do I bother? Love means, I love you as long as I'm getting what I want. As soon as you stop fulfilling my desire, I'll find someone else who will. It's my own stupid fault for going on Facebook and looking at his page. I should have just shut up and pretended that what he said wasn't a bunch of lies. I can understand what they mean now when they say that you can't hate someone without loving them. I'm so confused and so hurt, and I don't think I want to talk to any of them anymore. Just me and my foster parents and my friend enough to visit by dog. That's it.
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