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My ex-boyfriend e-mailed me today.  It's what I wanted so bad but now I'm scared because I don' t know how to talk to him.  I feel like everything is gonna upset him and I don't want to upset him anymore.  I've hurt him so much already and I don't wanna hurt him more!  I wanna explain everything but I don't even know how.  I feel so frozen.  I also feel so amazed.  I don't know why he would wanna e-mail me unless it's to tell me all the awful things I've done.  I'm so happy and scared and hopeful and worried and anxious and sick on my stomach.  Why can't anything be easy???  I know we can't be together but I wish we could be friends.  I miss him so much that  I don't know what to do but I don't know what to do now.